No, no, this is not a depression post, but due to my responses to current irritations I've come to realize that some is not enough.
I have made great strides in the past 5 years, completing 63 graduate credits, raise after raise, remodeling the house to no end, spending time with my kids, but still there is something missing.
For all intents and purposes I should be happy about this and that, etc., etc., and I am, but now is the time to start doing something for myself.
You ever get to the point where you give so much to satisfy other people that you end up drained, frustrated, and with feelings of incompetence? Working all day and studying at night went on for 5 of the past 6 years. In between semesters, it was work-then-remodel, over and over again, and even though I am very satisfied with the product of all three, I find myself with a deep-seated feeling of unsettleness, that the work will never get done, and if I keep at this too long there will never be any real benefit to self.
That's where I'm at right now, and have come to realize that I need to start doing things for myself. It's a sanity issue, not selfishness. In fact, at this point I could give two rat's ass if it is a selfishness issue.
Damn-it I need to exercise some selfishness.
All this give and no take is for the birds.
Don't know where I'll start or what will have
to fall by the wayside but a good place to start
is to get back into the gym.
It's been two months, my forearm strain seems healed (for now),
and if people want to complain my gym time is an act of selfishness
because it will limit my ability to do their bidding or otherwise
then they can take a flying f#ck!
(Chances are they probably need one anyway, I know I do!)
Oh, and by the way, Merry F-ing Christmas!
I have made great strides in the past 5 years, completing 63 graduate credits, raise after raise, remodeling the house to no end, spending time with my kids, but still there is something missing.
For all intents and purposes I should be happy about this and that, etc., etc., and I am, but now is the time to start doing something for myself.
You ever get to the point where you give so much to satisfy other people that you end up drained, frustrated, and with feelings of incompetence? Working all day and studying at night went on for 5 of the past 6 years. In between semesters, it was work-then-remodel, over and over again, and even though I am very satisfied with the product of all three, I find myself with a deep-seated feeling of unsettleness, that the work will never get done, and if I keep at this too long there will never be any real benefit to self.
That's where I'm at right now, and have come to realize that I need to start doing things for myself. It's a sanity issue, not selfishness. In fact, at this point I could give two rat's ass if it is a selfishness issue.
Damn-it I need to exercise some selfishness.
All this give and no take is for the birds.
Don't know where I'll start or what will have
to fall by the wayside but a good place to start
is to get back into the gym.
It's been two months, my forearm strain seems healed (for now),
and if people want to complain my gym time is an act of selfishness
because it will limit my ability to do their bidding or otherwise
then they can take a flying f#ck!
(Chances are they probably need one anyway, I know I do!)
Oh, and by the way, Merry F-ing Christmas!
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