I'm clean finally

[JDUB]

For a long time I spent time on the boards, frequently visiting and it was cool I enjoyed it, visiting with others that did what I did, training and growing, tying to make them selves better. I took sups to help me. I also drank from time to time. This drinking was something I always did and it was my escape from work, divorce, and other stresses. It seemed the gym was never enough for me to "get away" even though a lot of times it was perfect it seems.

I had injuries a few years ago, shoulder and knee back to back. During this time I couldn't work out. I started drinking more, eating terrible and gaining weight. This continued for about 3 years. I didn't work out, it caused issues with my family, I and spent my time drinking rather than doing things I needed to.

About a month ago I was drinking and made a big mistake of getting on to my daughter for really no reason. The next week or so I felt bad about it, kept drinking but couldn't seem to forgive myself for what I had done to my daughter. I felt like shit physically and especially mentally.

I woke up one day and told myself I wasn't going to drink. Its been 15 days without a drink and I feel great. I quit cold turkey and after drinking everyday for years it was tough the first 5 days or so. I had night sweats, insomnia, shakes, the shits, and other...But its all passed now. I went to the store and stocked up on good food. The best thing I did was get on the treadmill and walk and started lifting very light every day since the day I stopped drinking. it helped me more than anything. I have a lot of weights in my shop that hadn't been used in a while, I have everything that gym has really as far as free weights, as well as a heavy duty treadmill that is basically new that I bought about 2 years ago.

I'm down about 17 pounds in 15 days, and eating right and going up in weight some, trying to avoid injury. I'm 50 and it takes longer to get back in shape it seems. I'm back at Peak, this is about the only solid board around these days that I trust, some really good folks here and got some great leadership. I will be around here a lot more, I missed it, but didn't realize it and how much until I was sober.

I seen a post earlier about drinking and lifting. If I had some advice to some of you younger guys and gals it would be to just quit drinking, but I know its what folks do and you have to go through your own experiences. Just don't let it control you.

Very sorry for the book above. Maybe it will help someone that is or was in my position. If you need to chat about it let me know, I'd be glad to share more and listen to others. It helps.

JDUB

[Kluso]

Glad your doing better brother! I have been struggling with drug addiction most of my life. I just mentioned this in another thread actually. My old board TSC saved my life. I turned my addiction from coke and dope to bodybuilding. May still not be that healthy but it gives me confidence and makes me feel better about myself. We have all done things we regret. Getting yourself better is the first step. Your daughter will see that and it will make what you did more forgivable because you are doing something about it. Dont beat yourself up about it. We all human and she is family. She will forgive you. But you have to forgive yourself first. And only way you are gonna do that is by taking care of you and learn to love yourself again. Which I definitely still struggle with. It’s easy to beat yourself up about the past but that’s no way to live. Anyways, we here for you too! So, are you planning on running a cycle? Have you stayed on trt during your Hiatus?

[JDUB]

I'm in a good place now. Me and my daughter talked it out.

I'm just trying to get back in shape for now, who knows what the future holds.

Thanks Kluso.

[Kluso]

Sorry, sometimes I ramble on. Didn’t mean to sound preachy.

[Dawgpound_Hank]

JDUB that is great to hear buddy. Stick with it. The iron and exercise will help keep you on the right track.

[AlphaMale]

Great to hear you’re taking the steps necessary to be a better man and father.
I used to go out to the bar every night but started going to the gym and finally I started spending more time at the gym and less at the bar.
I haven’t had a drink in a bar in years by now and I’m in great shape.
Sometimes you gotta take a step closer to the mirror my friend.
Congratulations and I wish you much success my brother.

[willsgotrythm]

Jdub, that's great brother!!! Pretty much the same thing happened to me. I stopped drinking about 9yrs ago and just dove head first into the gym. At the time, I knew I had to stop and I did cold turkey too. It was the BEST thing I ever did!!! I still have some of the mental issues like Kluso was talking about but I finally got that monkey off my back.

[Roughrydr]

Great post. I appreciate the honesty. Stick to it and you'll live longer and be healthier.

[Demigod]

What better motivation than your daughter bro...there will still be days you think about having a drink. You gotta keep your mind busy. I'm sure you know this though...you can definitely get clean and stay clean. If you want it bad enough.

[HDH]

Stick with it man, it gets easier.

[ozzy69]

I recommend finding a place to sit in on a meeting or two

This isn’t something you can do on your own. No shame in asking for help.

[wallyd]

Good for you Jdub! Our kids can motivate most of us to a new level. I know not all but those of us that care can be highly motivated by them! I’m glad yo hear you two talked it out!!

[kriegernindo]

Drugs in of themselves cannot be evil but what they bring about is evil. I call it the evil poison, I don't refer to it any other name. Just that. But some people call it meth. I used to call it that. But its not that. It will eat your soul.

My brother actually just relapsed again, he even frequents this board or did at one time. So much pain and misery brought about, not just on himself but the family as well.

I pray to my GOD, the One true GOD, and thank him for delivering me. I was not saved by myself, or outside of myself, or by another. There is only one way to truly be free from things of the flesh, drugs are just a big time super size manifestation of the slavery we are in under the sun, vanity of vanities,........


without GOD.

God bless you all. Be safe and well.

[warreng]

Keep it up. One day at a time. Quitting drinking and drugs was the decision I've ever made. As former President Donald Trump said, the fact that I'm a teetotaler is one of my few good qualities.

[Kluso]

Drugs in of themselves cannot be evil but what they bring about is evil. I call it the evil poison, I don't refer to it any other name. Just that. But some people call it meth. I used to call it that. But its not that. It will eat your soul.

My brother actually just relapsed again, he even frequents this board or did at one time. So much pain and misery brought about, not just on himself but the family as well.

I pray to my GOD, the One true GOD, and thank him for delivering me. I was not saved by myself, or outside of myself, or by another. There is only one way to truly be free from things of the flesh, drugs are just a big time super size manifestation of the slavery we are in under the sun, vanity of vanities,........


without GOD.

God bless you all. Be safe and well.

I can relate man! Big time! My brother too! Just can’t stay away from that evil. He used to be bigger than me. It was so easy for him to put in size. Me, I had work for it. We were about the same size until his last binge. I was in shock how small and bad he looked. He’s on the positive side at the moment and already almost back to his size pre binge. It’s nutts to me. Before he got bad he could snort meth and still eat like normal, somehow? But then he started banging it and that’s when it got bad. He could have been a pro bodybuilder, I have no doubt. Dam shame!