I've lost everything I had four times. Twice, the two most recent 83, 89, I lost small fortunes.
First time had to run from the law, second time bought some bales of weed from cops, next time sold a few ounces of coke to some cops, last time got caught with just under 400 grams of coke, & $16,000.
You just get a job, start working. Eventually you'll meet a decent woman, she'll make you a better man and push you to nest. As you both work, assuming she does, you get better off, which leads to more opportunities for down time, vacations, etc.
But the job first. A man was both made to work and built for work.
Set small attainable goals, achieve them.