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OK, I wanted to personally some time to inform everyone here about a few things that have been going on with me this past month.
For those of you that already know, I've been having problems with having an appetite lately. For those of you that don't know, here is a short summary.
It was on the 3rd of this month that I ate at Taco Bell and shortly fell sick after eating a burrito. I became uninterested in food, and any thought of eating made me sick to my stomach. I had knots in my stomach, stomach cramps, gas, nausea and fatigue. I couldn't eat anything for a few days, and 7UP was the only thing that made me feel better. I thought I came down with a mild case of the stomach flu, but I was wrong.
At first, my appetite disappeared and I really didn't eat much for a while. Of course, when you get sick with certain a certain illness this is normal and you think nothing of it. My mom and several others suggested I eat yogurt because it would aid in digestion, but I knew there was something else inside of me that was more than just a "digestive" problem.
Seeing as how this continued for 2 weeks since eating at Taco Bell, it started to make me worry. I decided to go to the doctor and have things checked out. There were no signs of blockage inside my stomach which is a good thing, so the doctor prescribed Prilosec and a blood test. I didn't buy the prescription, but rather bought it OTC because its a lot cheaper that way.
As hard as it was waiting for my blood work to come back with any results, I became very on edge with a lot of things. My attitude changed, I became depressed at times, had little interest in things and I was very pissy, more so than I can be at normal times. When I finally got my results back, I received a letter in the mail stating I needed to go back for a follow up with more tests. There was no paperwork that said what it was that had been found.
At this point my heart sank into my stomach. I immediately freaked out, I feared the possible worst for my health and called my mother pouring out my emotions. My fear, anxiety, stress and blood pressure all started to rise and I became a total wreck. It's very hard to go day by day with no appetite or a desire to want food, while losing weight and wondering WTF is wrong with your body. At this point I had to take control of my bind and body once again, I had to stop this level of fear that was being put into my mind.
I went back to the doctor the next day after work, I received my test results and it was shocking to hear what was found in my blood. Aparently, the food I ate at Taco Bell was indeed contaminated. Parasites were found in my blood stream that were the cause of my digestive problem. I forget the exact term the doctor used, but she basically said whatever it was that I ate has infected my stomach.
I breathed a sigh of relief. I now knew what I had and could breathe again. All of the stress, anxiety and pressure of not knowing what was wrong immediately disappeared, and was soon replaced by disgust of what was actually inside of me. I was able to think clearly for once in a long time, and my mind immediately flashed back to the previous night.
As I sat in the laboratory waiting to receive some paperwork, I couldn't help but think back to all of the things I had said to Beverly (Ironmaidn) in the shoutbox the previous night. For those that know of what happened or whether you don't, I was attacking her in every way possible, I made her feel like shit and my actions were very uncalled for. Why I attacked her in the first place, is beyond me. She was the first person I saw online and I guess I just lashed out. Now, everyone who knows me knows I'm very direct and upfront in what I have to say to others, but this time it wasn't needed. I sent Beverly a PM and sincerely apologized for my actions. I explained that everything I had said had nothing to do with her at all, it was all me.
This is why I'm writing this to ALL OF YOU. I very rarely apologize to anyone, but I know when an apology is needed, and now is the time.
I want to apologize for my actions lately, especially during this last month. It's not easy being under stress when you have health related issues that are unknown to you. The fear that I had some life threatening illness just took a toll on me, I wasn't my normal self and I became a total wreck. I acted out on everyone with rude remarks, comments, insults etc., and it has in fact had an impact on my relationships with others. That totally sucks and I hate it, but for that I can only blame myself and I take full responsibility for my actions. I don't expect anyone to forgive me as that is up to each individual themselves. I have a general dry/sarcastic sense of humor, but I believe I took it to a more personal level and for that I'm very sorry. Just know I respect each and evey one of you here on these boards, even though it hasn't seemed like it as of late.
Again, my sincerest apologies to all of you. Just be smart and STAY AWAY FROM TACO HELL!!
For those of you that already know, I've been having problems with having an appetite lately. For those of you that don't know, here is a short summary.
It was on the 3rd of this month that I ate at Taco Bell and shortly fell sick after eating a burrito. I became uninterested in food, and any thought of eating made me sick to my stomach. I had knots in my stomach, stomach cramps, gas, nausea and fatigue. I couldn't eat anything for a few days, and 7UP was the only thing that made me feel better. I thought I came down with a mild case of the stomach flu, but I was wrong.
At first, my appetite disappeared and I really didn't eat much for a while. Of course, when you get sick with certain a certain illness this is normal and you think nothing of it. My mom and several others suggested I eat yogurt because it would aid in digestion, but I knew there was something else inside of me that was more than just a "digestive" problem.
Seeing as how this continued for 2 weeks since eating at Taco Bell, it started to make me worry. I decided to go to the doctor and have things checked out. There were no signs of blockage inside my stomach which is a good thing, so the doctor prescribed Prilosec and a blood test. I didn't buy the prescription, but rather bought it OTC because its a lot cheaper that way.
As hard as it was waiting for my blood work to come back with any results, I became very on edge with a lot of things. My attitude changed, I became depressed at times, had little interest in things and I was very pissy, more so than I can be at normal times. When I finally got my results back, I received a letter in the mail stating I needed to go back for a follow up with more tests. There was no paperwork that said what it was that had been found.
At this point my heart sank into my stomach. I immediately freaked out, I feared the possible worst for my health and called my mother pouring out my emotions. My fear, anxiety, stress and blood pressure all started to rise and I became a total wreck. It's very hard to go day by day with no appetite or a desire to want food, while losing weight and wondering WTF is wrong with your body. At this point I had to take control of my bind and body once again, I had to stop this level of fear that was being put into my mind.
I went back to the doctor the next day after work, I received my test results and it was shocking to hear what was found in my blood. Aparently, the food I ate at Taco Bell was indeed contaminated. Parasites were found in my blood stream that were the cause of my digestive problem. I forget the exact term the doctor used, but she basically said whatever it was that I ate has infected my stomach.
I breathed a sigh of relief. I now knew what I had and could breathe again. All of the stress, anxiety and pressure of not knowing what was wrong immediately disappeared, and was soon replaced by disgust of what was actually inside of me. I was able to think clearly for once in a long time, and my mind immediately flashed back to the previous night.
As I sat in the laboratory waiting to receive some paperwork, I couldn't help but think back to all of the things I had said to Beverly (Ironmaidn) in the shoutbox the previous night. For those that know of what happened or whether you don't, I was attacking her in every way possible, I made her feel like shit and my actions were very uncalled for. Why I attacked her in the first place, is beyond me. She was the first person I saw online and I guess I just lashed out. Now, everyone who knows me knows I'm very direct and upfront in what I have to say to others, but this time it wasn't needed. I sent Beverly a PM and sincerely apologized for my actions. I explained that everything I had said had nothing to do with her at all, it was all me.
This is why I'm writing this to ALL OF YOU. I very rarely apologize to anyone, but I know when an apology is needed, and now is the time.
I want to apologize for my actions lately, especially during this last month. It's not easy being under stress when you have health related issues that are unknown to you. The fear that I had some life threatening illness just took a toll on me, I wasn't my normal self and I became a total wreck. I acted out on everyone with rude remarks, comments, insults etc., and it has in fact had an impact on my relationships with others. That totally sucks and I hate it, but for that I can only blame myself and I take full responsibility for my actions. I don't expect anyone to forgive me as that is up to each individual themselves. I have a general dry/sarcastic sense of humor, but I believe I took it to a more personal level and for that I'm very sorry. Just know I respect each and evey one of you here on these boards, even though it hasn't seemed like it as of late.
Again, my sincerest apologies to all of you. Just be smart and STAY AWAY FROM TACO HELL!!
